Starting March 31 2014 till 6 April 2014, I have decided to abstain from movies and TV shows. That means no lying on the couch watching TV in the living room, no watching on my laptop, and no movies in the cinemas. It's time I spent some valuable RnR time with the Big Guy.
It all started with a debate VLIC had about the movie Noah, and how it's unbiblical. It led to me feeling that my love for movies was beginning to warp, and how with the whole Fox debacle (them giving the Production Asst job to someone else and subsequently not getting back to me about a recommendation as a Cast PA) it seemed that God closing the door meant He didn't want me in that industry. I've never had the courage to pray "God I give you full control", coz what if that meant God wanted you to sell everything you had and move to the Congo Basin? Being in movies has been my dream for as long as I can remember, so the notion that giving all for God meant giving up my dream was both heartbreaking and terrifying.
Talking to VLIC about it, though, made me realise that sometimes we are so focused on ourselves - what WE want, what WE are afraid of, what WE need - that we tend to compartmentalise God and limit Him to what we imagine Him to be. Lately I've been thinking of setting up a Christian media company locally, so maybe God is showing me that this "dream" of mine doesn't have to be so narrow. Plus, He really does have a sense of humour so for all I know, 5 years from now (or even 5 DAYS), I might be looking back on tonight and laughing at myself.
This fast is dedicated to figuring out God's heart for me again. I mean, if you've gone for so long without spending quality time with someone, you're bound to drift away right? Anyway, I've wasted so much time watching useless TV when I could have done a whole bunch of other better things. So I've made a list of things I want to accomplish while fasting this week:
1) Do the couples devotional everyday.
2) Do Our Daily Journey everyday.
3) Finish A Hobbit's Devotional.
4) Write and send that letter to Switchfoot that I've been meaning to do for weeks.
5) GO TO THE BANK AND SORT OUT MY DEBIT CARD.
6) Finish Captivating.
7) Finish The Reason For God.
8) Go swimming (!!!!).
9) RUN DAMMIT.
10) Spend time with my friends.
11) Sit in nature and soak in some awesome God time.
I'm thinking that (11) can be done simultaneously with any of the book-related points.
This seems like a pretty solid plan right? Getting off my lazy ass and DOING SOMETHING FOR ONCE. I'm actually quite excited now that I've listed out a To-Do list.
Well, God. Here I come. Feel free to blow my mind.
"Maybe I could wash clean
Yeah maybe I could wash clean
all my land-locked dreams
And maybe I could believe
We’re on your shore again
I can feel the ocean
I can feel your open arms
That pure emotion
I’m finally free again"
- Switchfoot, Saltwater Heart
Monday, 31 March 2014
Wednesday, 5 February 2014
So what if my arms are big?
I've recently started to wear sleeveless clothes, something I would never have imagined doing a few years ago. I'm not the skinniest girl, so naturally I notice the size of my arms in my reflection. Once during internship a male colleague commented that my arms could use a bit of toning up. At the time I brushed it off with a joke, but now that I'm wearing sleeveless clothes more often I'm reminded of the comment. Which, come on, anyone can admit was totally unnecessary.
Telling someone they need to lose weight for any reason other than health is probably the douchiest thing you could ever do. I am so tired of hearing girls say, "I need to go on a diet." Er, why?! If your heart or liver doesn't depend on you losing a few kilos then why do we as females (and even some males) feel the need to lose weight all the time? Saying "I need to lose weight" when you're already perfectly healthy only allows people, including yourself, to believe that beauty is defined by your waistline.
Would you want your daughter, sister, mother, girlfriend, wife, to think this way? Do you want them believing that their beauty is limited to a number on a scale, whether they can fit into that dress, or whether they look good in skinny jeans?
That girl on Instagram with the flat stomach? She's gonna grow old and get frown lines same as you. That gorgeous Tumblr model with the flawless skin? She's probably struggling to be on time for school just like you are. Even Gweneth Paltrow can't have silky blonde hair forever. Our bodies do not define who we are or who we can be, because they don't last. Your true beauty - the way you make people laugh, your affinity for music, how no one can beat your apple pie - that's something no one can take away.
Now that I'm turning 20 I refuse to bring the baggage of my teenage years with me into adulthood. I am the only person with the power to make me feel less than I should, so I just told me to shut up.
Yes, I have tummy rings, and yes I have cellulite. But who cares? The size of my arms don't affect anyone. The only person whose opinion matters is yours. I wanna see more girls with bigger arms, curvier bodies and wider girths wearing whatever the heck they want. Singapore is HOT, so why should the skinny girls be the only ones in tank tops?
Telling someone they need to lose weight for any reason other than health is probably the douchiest thing you could ever do. I am so tired of hearing girls say, "I need to go on a diet." Er, why?! If your heart or liver doesn't depend on you losing a few kilos then why do we as females (and even some males) feel the need to lose weight all the time? Saying "I need to lose weight" when you're already perfectly healthy only allows people, including yourself, to believe that beauty is defined by your waistline.
Would you want your daughter, sister, mother, girlfriend, wife, to think this way? Do you want them believing that their beauty is limited to a number on a scale, whether they can fit into that dress, or whether they look good in skinny jeans?
That girl on Instagram with the flat stomach? She's gonna grow old and get frown lines same as you. That gorgeous Tumblr model with the flawless skin? She's probably struggling to be on time for school just like you are. Even Gweneth Paltrow can't have silky blonde hair forever. Our bodies do not define who we are or who we can be, because they don't last. Your true beauty - the way you make people laugh, your affinity for music, how no one can beat your apple pie - that's something no one can take away.
Now that I'm turning 20 I refuse to bring the baggage of my teenage years with me into adulthood. I am the only person with the power to make me feel less than I should, so I just told me to shut up.
Yes, I have tummy rings, and yes I have cellulite. But who cares? The size of my arms don't affect anyone. The only person whose opinion matters is yours. I wanna see more girls with bigger arms, curvier bodies and wider girths wearing whatever the heck they want. Singapore is HOT, so why should the skinny girls be the only ones in tank tops?
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