Starting March 31 2014 till 6 April 2014, I have decided to abstain from movies and TV shows. That means no lying on the couch watching TV in the living room, no watching on my laptop, and no movies in the cinemas. It's time I spent some valuable RnR time with the Big Guy.
It all started with a debate VLIC had about the movie Noah, and how it's unbiblical. It led to me feeling that my love for movies was beginning to warp, and how with the whole Fox debacle (them giving the Production Asst job to someone else and subsequently not getting back to me about a recommendation as a Cast PA) it seemed that God closing the door meant He didn't want me in that industry. I've never had the courage to pray "God I give you full control", coz what if that meant God wanted you to sell everything you had and move to the Congo Basin? Being in movies has been my dream for as long as I can remember, so the notion that giving all for God meant giving up my dream was both heartbreaking and terrifying.
Talking to VLIC about it, though, made me realise that sometimes we are so focused on ourselves - what WE want, what WE are afraid of, what WE need - that we tend to compartmentalise God and limit Him to what we imagine Him to be. Lately I've been thinking of setting up a Christian media company locally, so maybe God is showing me that this "dream" of mine doesn't have to be so narrow. Plus, He really does have a sense of humour so for all I know, 5 years from now (or even 5 DAYS), I might be looking back on tonight and laughing at myself.
This fast is dedicated to figuring out God's heart for me again. I mean, if you've gone for so long without spending quality time with someone, you're bound to drift away right? Anyway, I've wasted so much time watching useless TV when I could have done a whole bunch of other better things. So I've made a list of things I want to accomplish while fasting this week:
1) Do the couples devotional everyday.
2) Do Our Daily Journey everyday.
3) Finish A Hobbit's Devotional.
4) Write and send that letter to Switchfoot that I've been meaning to do for weeks.
5) GO TO THE BANK AND SORT OUT MY DEBIT CARD.
6) Finish Captivating.
7) Finish The Reason For God.
8) Go swimming (!!!!).
9) RUN DAMMIT.
10) Spend time with my friends.
11) Sit in nature and soak in some awesome God time.
I'm thinking that (11) can be done simultaneously with any of the book-related points.
This seems like a pretty solid plan right? Getting off my lazy ass and DOING SOMETHING FOR ONCE. I'm actually quite excited now that I've listed out a To-Do list.
Well, God. Here I come. Feel free to blow my mind.
"Maybe I could wash clean
Yeah maybe I could wash clean
all my land-locked dreams
And maybe I could believe
We’re on your shore again
I can feel the ocean
I can feel your open arms
That pure emotion
I’m finally free again"
- Switchfoot, Saltwater Heart
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